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I took a pregnancy test two days ago and it was positive. I am elated, overjoyed, ecstatic and scared shitless. My stomach won't stay still for a second, and I have barely been able to eat since I read the test.

We decided to tell only a few people, mainly because it is so early and who knows what will happen. One of the people whom we chose to tell had a reaction to our news that crippled all the joy inside me and made me question everything about this change. I have felt sick since sharing my news, and that is NOT how I envisioned feeling.

Yes, this is a big change, and yes, we have a lot to think about, and yes, our children will be close in age, BUT YES, this is a BABY: A wonderful, innocent, soft, squishy, small gift and that makes me so happy.

Just like that, we are a family of four.